Cole Justen Solorzano

After what felt like 10 long months of being pregnant, Thursday 11/11 morning at 5:30 am I went to the hospital to have my c-section. Get there, the maternity ward is packed with pregnant women or women who just had there babies. Like did everyone want to have there babies on veterans day or what? So they put me in a room with two other ladies who where in full blown labor. Now keep in mind only a curtain was separating us, someone who has never been in labor before let me tell u it sounded scary. The one lady was dilated to a 7, screaming at her husband something is coming out get the nurse. Nurse comes in checks her, she is at a 9. They wheel her away, 20 minutes later I am still waiting & here comes her husband wheeling in a crib. I'm like no way that was to fast.

About 7:30 they come and wheel me to the operating room, the guy who gives u the drugs I can't spell it but he was hilarious... cracking jokes about my tattoos, they had the radio on in the operating room. It was just a chilled atmosphere I wasn't nervous at all. I am just laying there waiting to hear a cry from my son. Then I hear my dr. say "Holy cow look at the shoulders on that guy". My mom goes he has to weigh more then your brother did. My brother was 8, 14. I'm thinking no way... Then I heard him cry, made me so happy to know he is finally here. Then my mom went with him & the nurse down stairs to weigh him. They called up to my dr. & told her he was 9 pounds, 11 ounces. I couldn't believe it, I worked my whole pregnancy in a warehouse. Towards the end I was very uncomfortable & now I knew why.

Around 10 I was still in recovery which with Chloe I was in a room right away but like I said it was so packed with pregnant women there finding a room was almost impossible. Chloe wasn't supposed to come back there but they let her, my mom, my dad, my sister & my brother in law. Shortly after I finally got a room, but on the ICU pediatrics floor full of sick kids. So I wasn't allowed to leave my room, to avoid getting my newborn son sick. My nurses were wonderful, I felt so blessed to have them help me the way they did. Then Friday a room on the maternity floor finally opened up and I got moved down there.

Saturday afternoon we got to come home, and I think Chloe was more happy then I was. She was so sad that she was not allowed to sleep in the hospital with me for 2 nights. She got to sit next to her brother the car ride home and make sure he was ok. She felt so important. The first night sleeping was a joke, it was the night of the UNLV football game. So we heard it all, the kids kinda slept but we were all in the living room. Chloe refused to sleep in her room with out her brother.

Today Cole is 5 days old, he is a wonderful little boy. He nurses very well, which is a huge relief for his momma. Even though it is not the most comfortable thing in the world but MUCH cheaper & healthier then formula. I'm looking forward to being able to push them in the awesome double stroller I got, to the park here shortly...

4 days and Counting!!

4 days and counting to be exact, my life is going to change... I will no longer be a beached whale and have a little man in my life. Which is going to be a huge change since there has been no man in this life for the last 2.5 years. I'm excited to meet him, see what he looks like and see how Chloe is going to handle not being an only child anymore. Friday was my last day of work until Februaryish... I wanted to take some time off before he was born so Chloe and I could enjoy our last mommy and daughter time. Yesterday we made homemade rice crispie treats and tomorrow we plan on making brownies and cookies and some sort of craft for Thanksgiving. I'm actually looking forward to the sleepless nights, ask me in about a week if I still feel the same. HA... Because I am so bored these days stuck here in the house with no car, he will defiantly keep me unbored I shall say. These last few days have been hard on me because it seems like alot of my friends whose babies have been due after me have gone into labor already and I just feel its so unfair!! So 5 am is going to come early but I'm ready to meet you little Cole.

November....

So far this month has not been too exciting... the holidays are coming which is nice, seems like my sister & her hubby are coming down about once a month which is nice... work has been extremely slow & I have been terribly sick. Chloe had an exciting moment Saturday night, she sat on Santa's lap. Now if you know my daughter this is a big deal for her, if she sees some one in a character or a costume she runs the other way. She even took her picture with him... she smiled but has this look in her eyes like mom what are you making me do? It was so cute...

Bad luck....

So in August my parents went out of town and they let me borrow my dads car because mine doesn't have air conditioning... I was at Basic HS picking up my brother and the car totally over heated and needless to say we had to leave it there, get picked up and call and tell my dad the news. He was very upset... then about a month later I get a speeding ticket in my parents residential neighborhood for going 8 miles over. Then exactly 8 days after that I was on my way to work and I hit another car. So my car hasn't been drivable for a few weeks now, oh and got another ticket for that since the accident was supposedly my fault. My dad had a guy look at the car, was going to get it fixed this weekend, he gets a call from the insurance company saying the lady is trying to sue me for neck and back pain... Bull crap lady you were perfectly fine when you left. So my parents are going out of town again this weekend and I had no way to work tomorrow. My dad let me borrow his car... Laci came over to watch a movie with me, after 3 tv's of not getting it to connect to the dvd player we decided to go to Walmart to buy a remote thinking that would solve our problem. Get back to my house, dvd player still wont connect to tv... then I was like where is my phone? Come to find out I locked my phone and my dads car key in the back seat in my daughters car seat. So now I don't have a phone to call my dad and tell him once again I'm an idiot so I use Laci's phone can't work the stupid thing... go to Luxor meet my parents interrupt there dinner to get the extra key and now home but still didn't get to see the movie. Then we go the gas station and I can't get the pump to work for like 10 minutes, it helps if you push the start button... ughhh... Boy has my luck been done in the dumps. I needed to vent and that felt good.

*Friends*

So over the years I have had alot of friends come and go, mainly due to the fact that I married a controlling man who would only allow me to have certain friends. Since I have been single this last year, my friends were the ones who have kept me strong. Lately I have recently realized alot of them aren't true friends and I don't need them in my life. I am a strong, independent woman and your not going to bring me down. I care about those who are there for me and those who I know I can trust... mainly my sister who is always there for me. Then there is Amanda, who I have known since I was in the 5th grade, even when she was at her worst and survived Lupas, I know she has been there for me. Then in high school my best friend had a friend name Kristen who I knew but were not that close. Now I love that girl with all my heart, she is a single mom as well she is my rock, and gota love how we reconnected after mainly years on the lovely myspace. On Facebook I found my old friend who I have also known since i was like 10, Laci come to find out she is a single mom as well, so happy I found her, I love hanging out with her she is so much fun to be around. Then you have Lindsey, she and I work together she keeps me sane at that place full of drama I work for. Then what do you know, she

Yellow Lights!!

Yesterday was that lovely day I have been dreading for some time now and it finally came. A reminder of my 4 year marriage that would of been yesterday but failed, oh well it was hard but not as hard as I expected. Not guna lie I did cry but that was because I was a idiot and decided to watch the Notebook for the first time last night. Couldn't I of waited until today which I think would of been the smartest idea. So this morning I dropped of Chloe at my mother in law's where her father greeted me with WOW your hair is short, thank you captain obvious. Then my brother in law was there as well and said nice rockin it like Pink the singer so that made me feel good. On my way to work its about 6:40 am. I'm on Tropicana which if your from Vegas you know is a nightmare to drive on in the first place. The light turns yellow and the lady in front of me slams on her brakes when she was almost threw the light away she should have just gone. Well I couldn't stop as fast as she did so the front right of my car hit the back left of hers. Needless to say I got a ticket for failure to yeild and causing an accident. So I have gotten 2 tickets in less then 2 weeks now. So after the officer gave me my paperwork I went to work. Needless to say I had to go about 15 miles maybe even slower cuz my axel is messed up and the car did not want to go in the direction i was telling it to go in. So I get to work, my coworker changes the tire because I notice there is a bubble in it and I know that will cause it to go flat. So put on there spare and drove around the parking lot, still same problem. Needless to say I had to call a tow truck there was no way I was going to make it all the way home safely. I waitied about 2 hours after I got off work for the tow guy to show up but he was very friendly not creapy at all most tow guys are creapy. Then my daughter about had a heart attack when she saw my car is broken and got dropped off by a tow truck. We get home and her cat is not behaving, climbing walls, biting my toes, just not in the mood for her cat. I said Chloe I'm going to get rid of Bella and she said mom I'm guna get rid of you. Needless to say she went to bed right after that.

7 Days

In 7 Days from today will be my 4 yr wedding anniversary to Andrew. This is the first year there is nothing to celebrate since we are not together any more. I asked him if he knew what was coming up the other day and he said yes but I highly doubt it. I thought I would be taking it a little harder then I am but I'm not. Last night I went to one of my good friend Amber wedding and it was beautiful, at first I didn't want to go cuz I cried at my sisters wedding and I was thinking oh I don't want to be sad again ok more like jealous but I wasn't. I just said to my self Briana if there is a guy out there for you he will find you, it might not happen as soon as I would like it to but I am just trying to have patience and hang in there you know....